*ahem*

i never loved you
not from the start
that's why i refused
when you gave me your heart
now that i realise
i was just scared
never felt this way before
and i wasn't prepared

still that is no excuse
and this i realise
still i wish i could spend my days
lost inside your eyes

these feelings i hide
i cannot let them free
i've locked them inside
for i fear they'll hurt more than me

although we will never be as one
i just hope that you feel it to
as our time's been and gone
i hope you know i love you

and these feelings will never go
and i'm not sure i want them to
i wish i'd never said no
in hoping that you want me to

but when i see you with him
you seem so full of life
and although i am happy for you
it's just another twist of the knife
imbedded in my back
of which i placed there on my own
wishing i could change time
to have let my feelings known

but this is a burden, a wrong choice made and gone
it will be here with me forever, although forever seems too long
time cannot be a mesure, of the love that i do bare
sometimes i get the feeling, that life is hardly fair

but i've no-one else to blame but me
my own stupid mistake
although i'm only human
your love i yearn to make

and i, can't hide these feelings any more
my eyes, are weighed down with my hearts desire
but i, just hope you know the truth
that i, will always love you

i will never find another
to replace the void in my life
i will never find another
to relieve this weight from my eyes

*runs and frollocks in yon fields*

bloody hell. if you wrote that yourself im REALLY impressed, how come we never see you in chat monsoir shit??? eh? eh?

nicely done dip. I felt it. :)

definatly emotive, and something i can relate to, you cant tell it comes from experience...

I hope you sent that to the person it was written for.

Excellent !

uh....cheers again
:P

no cuz she's a great mate and i dont wanna cause the grief that will occur if she realises how i feel

The time will come........be patient

no cuz she's a great mate and i dont wanna cause the grief that will occur if she realises how i feel

Have been there once before and decided that at the end of the day when i looked at what she had been like as girlfriend and what she had said about and it put me off, as there is nothing worth losing a damn good friend. Safe to say she is still my best friend and we are off out on a picnic this evening :)

But rather than push things, spend some more time with her and see if you cannot do something with just the two of you. See what kind of signals you are getting from here, and as gentreau says

Gentreau spouted:
The time will come........be patient

not to say it will work out, providing you do not go in like a bull in a china shop :)

good luck